I almost quit.
Yep. You read that right. I almost hung up my hat as a business owner, creator, you name it.
The universe has a way of making you so uncomfortable that you have no other option but to grow. To be honest the past few years I’ve been going through a transformation but wasn’t aware of what was happening.
For the last two years I knew I had a lot of work to do on myself. So in true Keyonna fashion I dived head first into the hard and terrifying work of self healing and exploration.
This was completely consuming to say the least. Emotional ups and downs in my personal life left my creative reservoir pretty dry and damn near empty. Like if you were to put your foot in a barrel your toes would barely get wet kinda dry.
In the last year I’ve been as close to broken as I’ve ever felt in my life. I knew this was an opportunity for growth but personally and professionally. I told myself….
Alright now, you’re a hot ass mess, maybe you should hag it up.
Being a creative soul and having a conversation like this with yourself is typically terrifying…..only for me it wasn’t. I knew I was in desperate need ” to get my life together”. I was willing to sit down my camera (something I picked up at the age of 8) because I was afraid my level of service to my clients would suffer. And being as serious as I am about my business that’s the last thing I wanted.
I even set a date on my calendar when I was going to stop scheduling shoots. No lie. Like bam no more shoots after July. Hang it up. For the first time in my life I was gongho about giving up photography.
Funny thing about the universe is when you’re ready and willing to pay attention it’ll send you confirmation thru things and people on the most hidden parts of yourself. For me if was things that had been plaguing me for years and things I’d secretly wondered about career wise.
Somewhere between 2016 wanting to hang up my camera and 2017 after my MS diagnosis I got so much needed confirmation on my passion towards pouring into and pursuing intimate portraiture, boudoir, and mindset coaching. For the first time these three passions will live side by side as services on my brand new site. Take a look around and tell me what you think. Does it resonate with you? Does it inspire you? Comment below <3